that question been frequently popping out from my head lately.
that might be easy to be answered like, "hey, you're good at math!" or "you're good at literature." or even "hey, you're beautiful."
but me, myself, those three statements are not representing me at all.

i'm not good at math, or even literature.
about beauty, ugh, you'd rather be kill yourself. i am not.

so, i'm starting to wonder about my future life would be.
would i work in a place that i'd been wanting so much? like working in an agency model (of course not as a model, duh), live in Paris, meet a lot of true friends and nice co-workers, rent a beautiful apartment also sweet little family which i always capable of to be with in all of my time.
i'm starting to wonder...
i'm starting to worried...

first, i'm not good in anything. i mean, i might be good at something. but the thing is, i always give up in everything.
because, when the first time i was getting involve with that 'capable thing' such photography or even drawing. both of em were going bad. you know, my photography skill, is zero! i only good at taking picture of myself, i don't have friends that i could get em to be involved in my project because you know, i have plenty of those ideas about capturing a perfect shoot. but models, gah, i hate to think about it. also, accommodation like, places, lightning, tripod, make-up. such things like that.
and take another example, drawing.
yes, I've been drawing since i was in the kindergarten and till now, even there's a postpone-time during high school and now i'm starting to hold my pen on a paper again. my drawing skill is... below of zero.

back to the last statement, i'm starting to worried. because, my academic points, they aren't pretty well, i mean, i'm in average.
my skill, nope. i don't have any skill unless you mention me about how awesome i am while spending the whole day lying on my bed.

so, what do you think about yourself?
do you think you're capable of with what you've been doing?